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Good Morning and have a great weekdays.

I have to admit that I’m in the process of re-adapting my life back in KK after 3 years living in Melbourne. Why?
Because in Melbourne, I live in the middle of the City and transportation-wise, I can hope into trams or train to somewhere or just walking distance to any shop that I wanted to go without thinking “Malas mo injak minyak kereta & cari parking”.

Now I have to agree my friend. He told me When He further his study overseas he have to adapt to a new environment. After 5 years of study. He went back to his hometown… He have to re-adapt back his very own environment’s hometown. That’s how I feel now.

Straight to the point.. The feeling is different lar. Weird and Suffering at the same time.

Why Suffering? Because I can’t go anywhere.. I always cancel all my plan because I don’t have enough cash with me. In Melbourne different stories, Parents worrying about you and for sure they’ll give enough cash for you to survive, I also get extra cash from doing small works like freelance & selling prints. In KK pula, Since I’m back home.. Inda kena kasi peduli suda.. HAHAHA, Want to do personal project pun susah~~ *notty me*

Art and Photography sources in KK is also limited. >_<
There’s no one I can get what’s the latest photobook release or latest photographer’s exhibition or photography talk I can attend in KK. Even can’t meet someone talk about general photography. Supply pun teda~~ Camera freak banyak, but im not a camera freak person. Suddenly I felt so left out from something that I have passion. T_T

It’s great to be home~ The feeling of Joy Sensation is still in me. Cakap Bahasa Sabah (bos, kasi dua roti canai sama kola), Speak Sabahan English.. (Why this? bida oh like that.. You this! dun bah!! lol) and watch astro and also downloading lots of Japanese TV Shows and Drama on the net cos it’s freakin unlimited. Peduli lar slow orang bilang. I can download finish 2gb in less than 5 hours~~ . No im not using P1, Im using Streamyx.

Once my 1 year contract finish with the company that I will work starting this mid-feb or early march. That will be around Feb or March 2011, and that time I’m still 24+ years old. I’ll be travelling to East Asia and also Europe and maybe New York? with my portfolio. Visiting Photography Galleries, Photography Magazine, Photography Agency. Hoping to get jobs as Assistant Photographer or work as intern in the Gallery learning from the Curator. I love shooting people, I wish to become Celebrities or Idol photographer in Japan. Building more portrait portfolio like Hidekazu Maiyama. Or become War Photographer got send to any country that currently in War like Reinhard Krause or James Nacthwey..

That’s what I want to do!!!!

What does KK have? Even if KK have, the company will always stick with its 1 photographer forever. Not like those countries I want to visit, they want something fresh and new for their concept. They dare to hire different photographer with their own vision and perspective.

That how you gonna say “Don’t underestimate Sabahans?” If the mentality is still radical, persist, refuse and decline?
or you mean “Never underestimate Sabahan because conceited?

BIDAK!!

Chase your dream, grab the sky.. Never give up. No matter how old are you. – from a 24years old self me.

I guess that’s all. I hate this feeling. I hate telling how I feel sometimes~~

-peace bebeh and one love-

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